Its good to have a new begining

I'm gonna be strong! For the sake of those who supported me!

2007-01-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

You know, years past by, life goes on and..its no doubt full of ups and downs. I have landed into Orientation I again..which means i've been promoted to a senior J1. Ever since i've received the news 3 months ago, i've always fought a battle with myself, and telling myself that "Hey, its okie. You have to give in everything you have right till you graduate next year(2008) thats it." However, when i stepped into the school for the first day, i began to cry. I dont know why but i just lost hope. I joined my OG for the second day of orientation and everyone welcomed me with a clap, even though i declared that i am a senior J1. It makes me feels a little more in place rather than awkward. Today was my first actual lesson as a senior J1. Lectures, lectures and that weird feeling with the new J1s at the LTs makes me wonder, am i really in place? I went back home, and i saw my mum. I didnt show it to her that i was actually feeling bad about it but i just couldnt help it but cry. Tears just kept flowing like a river and it wont stop. but...i finally realised that i've been showered with a lot of love by my mum. When she asked me about the day today, i couldnt resist but to cry again. Guess what? The usual strict and fierce mum actually told me this, "You cant help it dear. People will definitely why you were being retained and stuff like that, but you got to face it and get strong. You have to be strong and not be afraid to tell them that you're retained due to bad results. If you ever have the fear of admitting that, no one is ever gonna respect you because you cant even respect yourself and treasure yourself. Its okay dear, you just have to move on."
I was so touched by what my mum said and i cried non-stop. Although my mum still doesnt realise that i was crying but its okie. I just feel i owe her so much in the past and that i may not have realise her deep love for me if it was not for this setback. If it wasnt for this setback, i would have stuck to my stinking attitude and never change. For that, i am glad...

2006-04-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

haiz..i just request for photos from sk..and when i see these photos..i cried..lol..dunno why too..maybe because it brings back a lot of memories bah..like those very sadding ones..and i rmbed!!!i forgotten to take pic with lik teck and some of the 4E1 picx!!

2006-04-22T21:13:00.000+08:00

ha...back for blog after such a long time..lol..ytd was the 26 speech day and the last speech day celebration, before ctss move off to commonwealth. ha..great day for me..had a great time taking photos...well talking about photos..i was suppose to take a photo with chek wye! my fellow ex-SI..and of course jacelyn! ha..but that cadet...dunno what's wrong with his photograhic skills man...both jacelyn and my camera has no photo!!argh! i really want that photo!lol...after that i went to mac for dinner with sh and sharon...well..that marks the end of yesterday. Today was a not so great day..i woke up late but still manage to wake up in time for the interview with the undertaker. lol..dun ask me why i wanna interview an undertaker. It's part of my cca.lol. nth much though..just some interesting fact that i found out about undertakers and the person who makes up for the dead...tough job for them...ha.

2006-03-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

Haiz. Many things have changed ever since the end of orientation II. I realised that i am no longer close to the people whom i was close b4...i mean friends that is. A lot of them left PJC, and left my life. I dunno why and i told everyone that i hate that kinda feeling. I know nothing last forever, but...isnt it a bit too short for a friendship? Sobz. *Confused* u can practically spot me lost and depress whenever i am alone. Very easy to spot. Someone with a dark shadow following ard her and on her head floating? That's probably me. Too many friendships had ended and never to be resumed..a whole lot of them, only stopped when i enter sec school...tell me is there anything wrong with me? sobz...the last friendship that had ended because of some stupid reason left me with a very big scar in my heart that till now i can never forget. Some people should know..it was such an unforgottable memory. Now, i have not recover from my previous lost and many awaits in the future i think. How am i gonna face them? Someone tell me. Having to go through this kinda lost is something that can be very hurting and i swear that i would never want to go through this anymore. Nvr mind about that...i feel like my privacy had just been invaded and my actions are being copyrighted. Whoever that is ..my gang of 6 should know and of course, sh and sharon should know. lol. !!!!!!!! I hate pple who copy my actions..my kind of expression, my kind of laugter and even my kind of sayings. I HATE it. If i realise anyone who copies my idea shall...hmm..not pay dearly that is..i'll just stop this kind of actions, adopt a new unique action and let them do it all they want. haiz..just someone tell me my flaws. PLEASE.

2006-03-09T21:53:00.000+08:00

Yoz. What a fun yet rotten day..so sad!..y am i so contradicting? You wanna know?...lol..even if u dont wanna know i'll still tell..lol. Ha. Had much cheers and fun today..and really DARWIN was high man.but i think as compared, WALLA still rocks. ahaha. Haiz. lots of nice games, know lots of pple and yar! blast! today was the so called "i know a lot more friends" day. hahaha..haiz..today after the orientation programme ended at ard 5.10 pm and the whole of the cheer leading squad and the performance group went down to discuss about the programme. The cheer leading group, including me, unknowingly became the performance cum cheering group. ok..next is what is rotten about today..while waiting for the ogls and the house i/cs to come down to brief us about the performance, i went up to the hall to see what were they doing. however,by the time i went up, they were already leaving the hall..i went down again..and guess wat...i think my previous og pple should know...I SPRAINED MY ANKLE!!!!!! Yar..accident prone me. VERY accident prone lor. Luckily it's not like last time when i twisted my ankle and unable to move for the next 24 hours..not that serious, but just a mild sprain..enough to make me feel painful..ahaha..but this time i still can walk on the stairs..just slowly...lol..still gonna wear shoe but i'll walk slowly..looks a bit weird while walking..not going to see any doc. NO CHINESE PHYSICIAN! NEVER! PHOBIA!!!lol.

2006-03-07T19:21:00.000+08:00

heya. update again. Haiz...i've seen many people come and go by my life often..seen quite a lot of familiar faces today and said hi to them..lol..sort of felt sad for myself..people are just weird eh? They can be good to u for like a few months, even to a year, but as time goes by, even the "hi(s)" and "byes" are gone. Why? I dunno..i went through this kind of friendship once and the feeling is just saddening. My friend, for some of u who may know, just apparently stopped all conversations with me and treated me like a total alien..no reasons given,nothing, just sudden break. Haiz...i hate to go through this again...in fact, i dont want to go through it again. It's terrible..even if i changed to a new environment in pjc, things dont get any better. But at least for the moment, the "hi" still remains...just a silent wave..nvm. i get a scolding when i forgotten to dump my dirty laundry in the washing machine..i derserved that la.

2006-03-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

Yoz. Back for more updates again. Ytd i went out with sy to look for her school..lolz..cuz i have nothing to do at home..ahaha..went to sa..then marina square....nothing to shop...in the end we went to JE...i bought a new pair of sandals..cost me 13.90!lol..haha...O2 began today and the activities were the SAME....so sian...hopefully ppl will be high tmr cuz got mass dance! yay!!!!!!!siao..zi high..no more my original dance partner liao..hopefully i find someone equally good!!!!ppl in my og not too bad! friendly i would say...hopefully tmr i dun self enthu again! see how first bah..maybe if ppl dun self enthu..then i dun self enthu lor

2006-03-02T18:06:00.000+08:00

heya..i'm back for blog!!!lol. Xinyi and lik teck came to my house just now to look at rabbits...lik teck is afraid of rabbits so he wont get close to the rabbits...ha...anywayz! Had much fun with them today and i bought a new water bottle!!!so cool...is nalgene one leh...cool lor..500ml i think is enough already...sis told me to buy th 1000ml one...but seriously do i need to drink that much?...lol...nvm..gundam seed is showing at 6 now..but i'm not watching...aha

2006-03-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

heya. Back for blog after a long time. Ha. got the ccs movies already and are watching them...just to say sth of what happen during mon's pe. You are not who to judge me, i judge myself and i KNOW my flaws. Neither do i need u to come up with a flaw that i totally DO NOT have to insult me. That's the reason why i flared up during pe(first lesson of the day). Haiz..nvm..those who do not understand just nvm..anywayz...i went back to np again today. The sec 1s can really make me vomit blood and faint. Things nvr get into their brain. NOTHING gets into their brain. Since they do not want to learn it the soft way, then do it the hard way. YESH. Hazri was taking half the squad and was like "Do u all have a timer?" waliew..faintz..this guy came here and said, "the timer is at the other half of the squad. no timer."..then we were like ok..and we asked for VOLUNTEERS to be the timer..INIATIVE is the KEY VALUE. They look at one another..quietly...nothing to say...no ones wants to volunteer. this is when i started to get nasty. "VERY GOOD! You look at me and i look at u..come on? where ur iniative? Looking doesnt help! What are you waiting for? SUNSET?! CHRISTMAS?! OR NEW YEAR?!"...omg...still no response...despite that angry look on my face. But come to think about it...this is not the first time i scold such words for no initiative. I did scold HAZRI's squad..previously sec 3 squad like this..ha..now is his turn..lol. Hazri cannot take it anymore so he made them STAY in pumping position...Still no one..my gosh..i went to remind them like "One volunteer can release all of u!"...no one..goodness..until one guy cannot take it already and he volunteered. Siao...time for their besurai already...and that's about all for today.

2006-02-22T18:34:00.000+08:00

yoz. back for blog. haiz. didnt go to sch today..and the worse thing is that my family doc's clinic is closed today!!!!!!! So ke lian..i went to the polyclinic instead and waited a long 1hr 15 minutes just to see the doc. Doc told me y stomach hurts due to a mucle pull around the belly button area. Haiz. but it seems to be getting more and more painful? Dont know la...but doc warned me it's a potential belly button infection(?!) and ask me to note whether there is any pus coming out from the belly button(eew). Ha...better do sth..since i missed quite a few lessons today.

2006-02-20T22:35:00.000+08:00

heya. Been blogging too often eh? Ha. i think so. I dont know why i feel this way but perhaps i'm used to it already. I've realised today that i have actually became fond of being alone in school, no longer miserable or upset..WHY? I'm kind of like doing my own things, living in my own world and nevertheless, sitting alone. However, suddenly i feel like i kind of love it. Perhaps i feel carefree, or am i just deceiving myself? The Shocking thing that i've found out is that i am really VERY noticeable!!!!! I was like offered a seat from both "gangs" in my class and was asked not to be a loner, like sitting alone in the canteen. When i was offered a seat from the first group, i sort of like directly rejected them. Maybe i've been hurt by this group verbally numerous times that i no longer want to get hurt anymore. I detest that feeling, really. The period of being a nice girl and a friendly girl is just over k? I've tried to be nice, but people just return me with evilness? Look, i'm not being psychotic or anti-social here k? Haiz. but honestly, am i really that inapproachable? Haiz..sigh....just glad i can get used to this loneliness in school...hopefully my friends outside the class boundary will always remain so loving and dear to me bah...

2006-02-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

hey. Ha..went to ac's fun o rama ytd. Had great fun when i had 12 bucks pouch and sh showed me ard her sch...lol..i paid the 10 bucks to haunted house.Ha..didnt scream, but shouted at the person grabbing my leg..lol. I wonder who it is? I went on saying " feel like stepping that person's hand" then i was like err..the person let go. LOL. Haiya..for the haunted house trip, i realised that my night blindness is getting serious. I entered the LT of ac, with lights off...i can see nothing..nothing at all..except for the "haunted" woman carrying her "baby whom i waved to due to the red light shining on her. She took an aluminium knife and pointed at me soon after i waved but i was like LOL...started smiling. ha..in the end i held sh's hand and we went out of the LT..haha..told ya i was night blinded. Saw azmi there too...great...havent seen him for a long time, ever since our reunion the other time at sentosa..GREAT NEWS TO MYSELF!!!Sis decided to buy me the whole ccs series(bought le)..yeh!!!my goodness!!!!!!!so good!!!so sweet!!!thanks sis! Muacks! I'll cherish it...dun worry(HEHEHE) safekeep!!CCS!!!!I'm still lacking of the movies..gonna look for it myselfsince sis help me pay le..lol.didnt do much today....mum had no time to bring me to second aunt's place so i am alone at home for the whole day. So not cool. Haiz. School again! PE!!!!hates. Its not the distance that matters now...its the speed...goodness....i havent been training at all..ha..and will continue not to. School isnt great...not that pe's concern...its pple. pple that matters..='( ..sob...just got asked this since xinyi has withdrawn. "Hey, xinyi has left...why are u still here?"...my gosh..i was like quite pissed but not upset. Just replied " I wanna stay here!?"...learnt not to vent my anger though...haiz...shall stop blogging...

2006-02-17T22:53:00.000+08:00

back for update again..its weekend man...great...having very bad gastric currently so going to just update shortly...sch was ok today...after that i went to search for ccs as usual. I found the part 1 of the box series but its like freaking ex la...60 bucks for 35 episodes...ahahah..bought the china version instead...which they have missing episodes and the voice over is bad..ha..but it's ok..10 bucks for 20 episodes mah..gonna save that 60 bucks for my 35 episodes...hopefully sis supports me..hahaha...wait for my card captor sakura!!!!!!..ciao

2006-02-16T20:26:00.001+08:00

heya...i'm back for more interesting sharing, just tripped and nearly sprain my leg...luckily there's a chair near my and i fell sitting on the chair..ouchy, my leg hurts a bit..told ya i'm accident prone. anyway, life in school isnt really great, i'm a loner, sit by myself that sort of thing, still cant clique with them, cant find any reason to do so too...Sad. my gosh. Mummy just told me some past which i think it's very sweet!!!!Aww...its about how my dad woo my mum..how he took the initiative that sort of thing...yeh..first time hearing...the both of them must be very cute..Ms Ng just told us that H1 biology is totally useless, might as well take H2 since H2 is not going to be any easier or difficult. Went SENKANG with st today...so sorry to make her bai walk...so sorry!=(...in the end there wasnt any card captor sakura there...sobz..i went so far to find nothing...there's a lot of gundam seed destiny and inuyasha..turned out that i find more and more people liking inuyasha..my sis used to adore inuyasha..suting's sis is still in love with it and ming wei finds it nice. Thanks man..sis just said i look like gorilla..honestly do i?! Siao..my ability to stretch is far beyond her lor..i can stretch quite a lot beyong my feet..ahaha...sit and reach sure A one..Haha...shall end this short blog here...lol...mums gonna support me for my wallet..yeh..gonna take a look tmr.

2006-02-16T20:26:00.000+08:00

2006-02-14T19:00:00.000+08:00

heya, i'm back already. Haha. Went to jp and found nothing there..none of the wallets there look appealing to me. The worse thing is that there's no CCS VCDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!So angry, they've got slam dunk, Gundam Seed Destiny, Gundam Seed, Kenshin and Inuyasha there...just no CCS!!!!!!!!Got to go rivervale plaza or clark quay to look for it...but no one's accompanying me there!!hmph! Turned out that sharon love to watch lnuyasha and for some reason she's angry with arts central for cutting inuyasha away...lol..wat's the plot anyway? The 1/2 dog and 1/2 human guy?lol..so sad...i want CCS!!!My bday present!!!hopefully it's still there, anyway, i'm going to lot 1 to continue to search for my ideal wallet before the contents of my wallet really drops out...so ciao.

2006-02-14T12:50:00.000+08:00

heya, as u guys out there know today's valentine's day rite? lolx. I'm at home now...which means something...lolx.No Valentine..hahahaha..ok. mummy keep telling me to dress properly la, in skirt la, throw my op shirts away and that sort of thing so that i'll be able to get a bf. Siao. Affinity is a must la. Later i'm going out with 2 girls (dun worry i'm not a lesbian) to jp to shop..gonna get my wallet today too, if not my wallet's content is bound to drop out someday. Gonna look for CCS too..later coming back to blog again. LOL. Today reminds me of the other day we had og lunch at swenson..thanks to lik teck man, who ask who's bf izzit in photograph from the camera, that's actually my sis's bf, shuai one somemore...just that i have not deleted the photograph...then when i say "Jie jie de" ming wei started saying, "HUH?! U fought with ur sis for her bf?" ...then i was like...dotz...now tiao4 jing4 huang2 he2 ye3 xi3 bu4 qing1 le...idiot...shaminah and ming wei also gang up say that i've forgetten i'm from pioneer pri..lolx! i've got 6 people to prove that i'm not from pioneer pri...haha...then they started to imagine i must have fell into some drain near my house then got amnesia...siao..ahahaha...going out soon le...so ciao.=)

2006-02-13T13:43:00.000+08:00

heya. Back from school already. Today had ogl interview. But before that, i had stomachache for 2 days and LS this morning. Wat's wrong with me again? Ha. I think i totally screwed the ogl interview today..turned out that the person interviewing me is the crapper from my chinese class..lolx. Ok. Brief description of myself, i went like, i am a person towards leadership....4/5 NCO that sort of thing. Then i was asked why i wanna be ogl. then i was like " it's challenging for me and i used to be 4/5 NCO thus, i wanna continue to do.." Case scenario. "What if ur og member wanna change og group?"..then i was like "try to find out wat's the root of the problem and ask him if he really thinks that the other group would be suitable for him. by half the orientation, if he/ she really decides to change the group, i can do nothing too." Second question. " What if ur og members feel outcasted?"...phew, that's the question my jie jie prepare me for..yeh..in the end i still fell into their trap. "tell me the location of mpr 6" then i was thinking, got mpr 6 meh...in the end i said "Mpr 6 is the one which is one storey above com 1" stupid me..lol..i actually memorise the college anthem and i fail to sing it out! Sick me. nvm. glad i have finished. Went to lot 1 to shop as usual and look for CCS vcds. Still nothing...argh...instead i found a lot of my sis's favourite Kenshi VCDs, and inuyasha vcds. LOL..WHERE IS CCS?! Since Kenshi is such an old show, why isnt there CCS?! Can someone help me go JB and look for them? Back home now, i found out that my rabbit broke its toe!!!!!!!!!SO KE LIAN!!!!!My gosh...when i left home it's still alrite! HOW COME?! Bleeding right now..got to find something to help it bandage, so ciao.

2006-02-13T00:28:00.000+08:00

Heya. 2nd time blogging..ha. ok. Just to blog about me being the clumsy one today again. lol. ming wei had reminded me dunno how many times today just not to fall/trip...ha. but the og outing was ok..i didnt do anything clumsy except for burning my hand while stupid me hold the baked rice...lol. at home was very bad..ha. seems that luck's not with me eh?
Accidents:
1.Scald my hand with the baked rice at swensons.
2. Poke my head on the "ying2 liu3"...so clever of me.
3. Bang my head on the cupboard while mum's opening the cupboard.

So not bad eh? Not more than 3 not bad..haha...sis is also laughing at me...lol...hopefully i dun do clumsy things while i'm being interview at 11.40 am later. Got to go sleep liao. Bye!

2006-02-12T20:36:00.000+08:00

Bah!...back for blog again. Lol. today had og lunch at swensons. Cool. We sat there and took like quite a long time to order...haha...in the end i still order wrongly. i thought banana split = hot fudge banana split lor...shucks...like blur me. Everyone was like dotz lor..even the swenson staff stare at me. lol. Zp and gabriel say that they'll arrive at 4..in the end they came at 4.30pm. Lol. We shua them say who's the last who'll treat. The cost of all our meal is $172.33 exclusive of GST. Went PS after that to take neo prints..haha...so far i got 2 only leh. Sad me..we did a lot of funny things today. Like alvin's martial arts that send gabriel flying, my camera being the slowest...and lots more. Haha...hope we can spend time again together...we look so xing fu today...lol...toking about today, i finally realise why pple in my sec sch call me a tomboy le la...it turned out that all girls either wore skirt or jeans...unlike me..who in the end joined the guys alliance of wearing 3/4 pants. Siao me. Mummy also say i must wear more skirt...lol..i refused. I'm doing people a great pleasure already by wearing skirt for chinese new year already...wat else...haha..my dressing today also looks a bit gangsteristic...haha like all black..even my bag..xinyi still say my bag blends in with my shirt.-_-"..dotz. anyway..thanks xinyi for treating me the sweet potato..haha.nice. shall end here now..lol..cya.

2006-02-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

HEY!~ Back for update liao. Had a rather weird day today. Met up with sharon and sh for lunch at clementi and i am the earliest once again...yeh!victorious me. Lol. had lunch at the japanese restaurant today. Weird. 3 of us shared 1 plate of fried rice and the fried rice damn salty. The teriyaki chicken is salty but rather nice. Ok. Sch. Hard time. I've got 18 for my L1R5 and i burst in tears. Sis told me that it's alrite and i have done my best liao. Sheesh. I got 6 for my eng...beta do sth abt it.then it's like i got ci4 ji1 dao like that...i went ard and laughed and suddenly became like nth has happened to me like that. Siao. Went to lot 1 to eat. In the end i didnt eat at all. Dun feel like it but i was still laughing..mad me. Bought 3 bottles of drinks for the whole og cuz at first the ogl wanted..in the end i was like MY TREAT...yeh..i wanted to give og 17 sth...Cuz i realised now that when i was in og...i was like in heaven? Now ppl are being mean to me. Really hope my og stays united. Lolx. At first we were setting up the fire. It took us like 2 hours to set up the fire cuz of the limited bad quality fire starter.In the attempt to let the fire start, chula went all the way to throw the charcoal on the floor..ha..yann ming and ming wei went out to buy the "chicken" brand fire starter and started dumping them in. Ha..finally, we opened our food and started bbqing. Lolx..ogl ming wei opened one pack of sausage and i opened 3 packs zai bo me. ha. Honestly, when we bbq our food, a lot went into alvin and the gang's mouth. I was really quite pissed lor cuz the food was mainly bbqed by xiao xin and ogl pristine...nobody actually eats them lor except for me who go and tou chi. So sad...i was like serving like a waitress and yet not much pple wants it. =(. Had a lot of fun from the mass dance and fun dance. Ha. The first time i was dancing with jun hong and gang for fun dance. then i did the 2nd fun dance with odac gang. Last i did fun dance twice, mass dance once, with ogl ming wei cuz we were bbqing then the music started.lolx. Cleaned up the place after the bbq ended and the otah amount left like 50 and chicken left with 20?! Argh. Took some fotos and went home with suyi.Mummy didnt say anything abt my result...just say ok lor..can stay in pjc can liao...sis not coming back also...so cannot let her see my result slip. Sob.

2006-02-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

Omg. this is my 3rd time here on the blog posting. Can help me to erase my fears. ARGH!!!GONNA BE THE DAY SOON!!!!!!!!!=( seriously, i am very worried. Why just things be perfect? Nvm, as i have told a lot of pple, i wont be able to sleep tonight. Just wont. shall win the "Panda of the Year" award. Given that the award is 2 black rings. It reminds me of a lot of times how i support pple to study v.late in the night. Esp jane, who lives just 1 storey under. We would msg each other for every hr? Until she and i are ready to sleep. =( We broke our own record i can say. I stay throughout the night surviving on coffee,(that explains why i got bad gastric) until 7 am. Very funny...my mum woke up that time and thought i just wake up to do work until i tell her lor. it was like "Girl ah, u siao ah? o levels leh, GO AND SLEEP NOW."then u know how reluctant was i a not. Still, i slept and woke up at 10. Jacelyn still tell me "wah.u ook horrible." Yeh! Finally, jane and i ao2 guo4 the o level period liao...and we went out after that!!!!Anchorpoint is the place since it's like my neighbour? Just a few steps away. We shop, shop and eat. Yes, vent ur displeasure. I still remember jane told me "I remembered i nid to go back home to study." Just a second later she smile! "silly me, we have no more exams!"haha...interesting. We went out like most of the time during the holidays and its like not enough. My gosh. Bought a lot of things. Spend way below my budget for new year clothes too. Only like 30 bucks for the shirt and skirt. Yes. though i look weird in skirts, turned out alright!People!!help me recall memories leh. I dun wanna think about tmr! HELP!

2006-02-09T18:09:00.000+08:00

heya. back again.this time from teen titans and the pile of clothes i was folding. =P. Just recovered from my forgetfulness...lolx. Met lik teck at the canteen today and he was eating curry puff..i commented that he got good table manners cuz of the curry crumbs on the CHAIR. Then he was like, "no wat, eating curry puff and dropping the crumbs is common." then i was like, "the prob is u drop them on the chair? no the tables?" haha...he smiled then replied, "i've got bad chair manners wat. Wat do u expect."..dotz. My rabbits are so loving! =P! Teen titans were great. Seriously think that raven and starfire is the best man. Cyborg and robin are too ego! Argh. The theme song and the ending song is cute! both sang by puffy amy yumi. Now i'm listening to cardcaptor sakura's songs! So nice, although a dun understand them. ha. Must wait till sis come back and tuition me for bio. Confusing sia. meanwhile i'm gonna play maple. My char's rotting while sy is like lvl 50 already!

2006-02-09T15:34:00.000+08:00

back from school already. Haiz. never expected to be this worrying for my o levels. *Worries* hey jane, st, sy, yiling and choun, dun worry together with me k? =P. Receive a cute note from xinyi. KAWAII! She said that i can be a very good jia ting zhu fu? Where she observe that from? Still tell me to find a hubby soon..siao.i told ya people are mean and yes they are. Today the whole class was like "We pon bio lesson k?"then like the whole class agrees. luckily i still got sis with me for bio tuition. In the end it was like, xinyi, lik teck and i wanted to leave but security guard alerted us. haiz. we still went back to confirm whether we're not going for bio lesson. They said yes. In the end after 15 minutes of bio lesson someone called xinyi, "we having bio now! u wanna come?"..then i was like "WHAT' THEIR PROBLEM LA?"..xinyi did not went for bio, only poor me dash up to the bio location. Guess wat..when i enter the classroom people started to laugh at me. Like hello? Whats so funny? Someone still say. "u guys are not noticable, dun nid to come one"..whats that suppose to mean?It's simple.It means that I'm being bullied by mean people again. Now xinyi is being dragged in too.I was like darn pissed off by the whole class la. Its like they must be thinking that i'm so naive to believe them!Hmph! They shua3me round and round in circle like some clown. VERY FUNNy. Luckily the teacher kind of understood why i was late so she didnt ask. I shall not believe them and shall do everything my own way. U guys who bullied me, like desmond says, ni3 qu4 tiao4 bah. Dad's so funni. I told him that i've got like scaly skin under my elbow and on my left leg(actually he knows la) then he was like, "Hey, there SANDPAPER inside my cupboard, go and take it to SAND IT OFF." I give him that lame look on my face and he laughed. He added on and tell me to SAND it everyday without fail and remember to apply brasso on top to give it the shine...i was like dotz..siao. He's like telling me to POLISH my leg like how i polish the M16 during np times la..dun xiao3 kan4 wo3 k..my rifle very shiny one...Dotz...i realised that i haven been posting blog entries on my rabbits!!!!They're so adorable!!Carried blackie all round the house today...she's so comfortable until she slept in my arms...aww...jingle wouldnt allow anyone to carry her...dunno why...=) so cute! They would snatch the biscuit from u everytime la...oh my gosh, i'm crazy about them. Just a reminder to jane. Please re-visit my house on march 16 for my rabbits! they miss u...lol..anyway, teen titans gonna start at 5.30pm.got to go watch although it is a repeat. Raven rocks. ciao!

2006-02-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

heloz. back for update. Very saddening these few days..i worry about my results more than any other things.sad. ok..let me tell u wat happened these few days bah. Had a great time with sis at night when we talk, except i'll forget wat i wanna say halfway. Very funny..i was like "you know...you know...you know...you know.." then i continue, "you know wat ah?wat was i gonna say?"..lolx...She always provoke me one, saying my talent is to be clumsy. Doing the impossible = impossibly clumsy. Actually quite true. The drains near my house and my old school all got traces of my acts of clumsiness. I fell into almost all of them. lol. A lot has happened. I literally knocked my head against the alter in my house on sunday and yup, there's still a bump there. ytd had PE and we gota do 40 jumping jets for warm up. It was like alrite for that 40 jumping jets except we keep repeating cuz some didnt know how to do it. afterwhich, we kena 110 jumping jets cuz 11 people didnt tuck in their shirts. T_T...after that 80 jumping jets or so i started to hyperventilate. Great. Nearly fainted down there. Some got scared off while some still ostracizing me, thinking that i feigned it, cuz got 3.2 to do. Very funny. Took me like 1 whole hr to recover and dizzy spell lasted the whole night so i slept throughout. Sheesh. Terrible. kz. today. at first nth big happened except i got stomachache and the spine is acting up again, stupid, i thought it would not be painful anymore la. Sis told me to cook food and bring to school since i got bad gastric which cause the stomachache. Ha. Went back to ctss again for np. Saw bernard, weixiong, mashafiz, kasinah, desmond, jacelyn and vicknesh..yo..they rock. Time for dismissal. Got one boy just got knocked down by his friend and broke half of his arm...the hand instantly became like crescent shape. My gosh. So scary...his face was like pale like paper and he keep breaking into cold sweat, saying that he wants to vomit. Anyway we shall be the caring graduates..=), i helped him to clean the wound using the sterile wash and boy, i got blood all over my hand...lol..nvm that's not the pt. I was like so afraid that i would hurt him while washing so i washed his wound very carefully. got lots of cuts on the left knee and elbow...sheesh, and i still keep asking him whether it hurts when i help him apply the sterile wash and antiseptic. I was like "when it's painful must tell me immediately hor." So sad..the others were very helpful too..vicky and kasinah helped me hold the things for him to bandage, asking me constantly need help a not..jace and desmond helped him to wipe his sweat off...good job done i think...all of us are so kind!=P.. shall end off...hopes nothing bad is gonna happen!=X

2006-02-06T20:06:00.000+08:00

yoz...back for update again. I have decided to stop worrying since the results are gonna come out on fri. =(..sad i'm still deciding for myself the best place to go. Say by alphabetical order.
AJC -->its way to far for me man..no will do. Its gonna kill me to travel back. Moreover heard from christine lien that the peeps there very bad.
ACJC --> Perhaps i dont quite like the style there bah. i know sh tell me that it's a very good sch. but i see i would be able to get use to there. Cuz one pt. i am not a very ac person.
CJC--> heard a lot about cj too. that's not very good so far. Maybe i think too much. distance is one factor too!
HCI --> NO and no. even if i meet the criteria for the entry i'm not going there. jane is academically inclined and she does 4H2s. But sorry no offence, i dun wanna die there. The schedule for pjc i think i just rite even if there is a jump in the speed of learning. But look at HCI, they just finished the chapter and the test are coming. How are the people ever gonna survive there? Even it takes me like 3 days to finish one chapter summary! =(
IJC+JJC --> I'm a physically challenged person. Nope..this jc is gonna kill me too. Think the pe in pjc is alrite. Even if i need to run 4.8km.=(
MJC --> imagine i see no good peeps from meridian..sorry but really no offence. I am darn afraid that i'll not be able to pull myself out from there.
NYJC+NJC --> Please. Although it seems that peeps in NYJC and NJC are enjoying themselves, but is that true? The distance for me to NY if far too. NJC is the same as HCI, i know i wont survive there.
Same goes for other jcs and institutes. It's either i dun like the study "slack" system there or i just think i cant survive there.
So i think after all, pjc may be my final choice. the teachers here are not bad. So far i think and the lecturers have some little mistakes only. The peeps here are good too! JC2 are friendly people and great! Just that i dont really know now who are my friends. Hongda and i had lunch today and we really had a good talk abt this school. i think hongda has changed his mind abt staying in pjc. Seems that no one is staying in pjc. =( which is sad. Hongda also told me the peeps here tend to form cliques quickly and leave people out. Which i think is very true! =( i'm saden by the fact that people here are very sacarstic and i do not like them honestly. I dont even think people think good of me. People are just being sacarstic about my hardworking-ness. Like the other time the gp essay, i just cant bring myself to not do it..so i just did it lor. In the end it turned out that i was one of the 5 people who have done lor. When people asked me whether i have done my work, and i just replied yes. Then the person went a whole round and sacar me. "Aiya. I forget that i dont need to ask her one la. Dont need to ask also know she this kind of people will do one." Which is very bad. hello?! i am wrong to do work mah? Can someone give me advice?so i'm suppose to tell u i dont wanna do work? madness. Reminds me of a lot of bad things people do and say to me in class. That's why i dun like them at all. Okie. Some people appears to be very friendly to u in class but in fact, they went one round to try to criticise u in some way. Like my first pe lesson. suppose to do 2.4 km. in the end due to my condition (hyperventilation), the teacher told me to only do 2.0km. Hello, like i wish to run lesser like that one lor. The girls in my class just came over and i told them honestly i ran 2.0km due to my condition. In the end they just smile and one of them said, " aiya, i know i also go and feign illness. " Like HELLO! like as if i'm feigning like that la.The last incident i wanna talk abt is the IETL day...at first i didnt really wanna tok abt it until i really cannt take it anymore. The whole grp of the broadcaster competition is very bad. they sound as if it is me who is so interested until i pull them in to join.here's wat they say. " No wonder, u are in the YRC so u'll naturally take part." its like they are in the same group as me then they're "FORCE" to join. Btw, i'm in the health and fitness club and i neda run 1.6km more every pe lesson. So one girl was like accusing me for skipping the run due to the JAE talk. But seriously, no lesson lor. U dun expect me to report for the run when there is no lesson. when i want this people sacar me. when i dont want this, people sacar me again. Forget it, i try to be friendly, people dont accept me so dun force me to go back to square one. Fine, if this continues on, no more friendly yanwen in 06S06. Stop all the sacar b4 i get really nasty on people. U wont like me when i'm doing that.No more nice me. Of cuz i'll still be nice to people i think are my very good friends! my ogl people are one of the group! at least they wont think that i'm nice to bully.

2006-02-05T16:28:00.000+08:00

this is bad. very bad...o levels results are coming out like 4 or 5 days later. I fear very much. VERY MUCH. I fear for my english results, my humanities results and my worse feared subject, physics. These subjects seems to be haunting me every night, and i cant seem to sleep well. Well i look like a panda already, so it doesnt matter. =( there no one to comfort me, even people just tell me not to worry. In fact no one can understand my kind of fear, i hear all sorts of evil nightmares, like sh getting 22 for her L1R5, jieming getting 45...this is so bad. Sh is academically incline and it seems if she gets 22, i'll probably be like 30? TOUCH WOOD! =(, this is so sad. Sorry to offend anyone, but some people seem just to care abt the upcoming valentine's day and whether a not they'll have a date on that day.I was like oh c'mon, ur o levels results are more important la...i do have a wish for that but i'm not thinking about it. I'm currently very concerned abt my results and like what miss koh says, i am overwhelmed by my own fear. AND i am totally engulfed by it. So ke lian of me. CAN ANYONE HELP? I know the answer would definitely be a no. haiz..sick..i shall sign off now.

2006-02-05T13:55:00.000+08:00

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Which Card Captor Sakura Character Are You?
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2006-02-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

heya..got sth to clarify. I may sometimes be too friendly to ppl until i say sth out of nowhere..so sorry hor..ahahahaha..i'm just too friendly=)

2006-02-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

haha..back for update! today was IETL day lol...thought it would be boring at first...but turned out that it was very fun! lol..today was the chinese broadcaster competition..i failed utterly..ahaha..CMI man..so i went ard the sch..sat ard, did NTH. Later, i waited for the fun dance and mass dance to start and shu hui came. Dom followed and next came sharon. my gosh..so sad...they left early! hmm! so sad...i wanna be ogl! hahaha...siao me..madness..TODAY WAS REALLY MAD. you wont believe it man. I met ogl pristine twice, which is quite common, then i met ogl xinyi 5 times. Lastly, i met ogl ming wei 11 times...siao...ard the sch...like wherever i go i see him la..my friends also thinks that we're way too much..hahaha...shu hui even commended that i was followed by my ogl. hahaha..no la..just concidence. hahaha..i miss mass dance and fun dance!!! Shu hui still say its a waste of time lor..so sad to me..=(...ha...anywayz, i wanna go slp liao...so ciao.

2006-02-01T20:23:00.000+08:00

yo..back for update again. I dont know about sth..sth is very wrong with me..it's either i get very enthu out of the sudden or i'm very depress..sth is terribly wrong with my mood swing..haiz..I dun even understand myself! =( peeps out there...please bear with my insolence. Damn. Today felt sickly the whole day like life's suddenly very dull, nothing to do..see how abt tmr first..if i can i'll take leave. lol. dizzy spells getting me no where and that stupid neighbour of mine is damn noisy. I couldnt sleep for the whole night and thats it. IDIOT DRUNKARD. he can go on and on non stop for like 10 hours throughout the night and still shout and scream. anyway..happi CNY! omg. can someone tell me what's wrong with me? I'm feeling like i'm very sensitive to issues. nvm.cya.

2006-01-31T01:18:00.000+08:00

Ha...back for update again...lol..veri funni...much has happened and i dunno where to start! LOL...ok..went back to ctss on wed and saw the sec 1 intake for np. man...they are one problematic grp!!! SIAO ONE...many of them dun really respect jace and me...cuz prob we're in our sch-u and no one knows how fierce we really are! lol..totally nonsense..Asking them to obey just one command is worse than asking them to run 10km...madness...the funni thing is when i told them to ask for permission for anything got one boy is just way too "obedient" bah...when we asked "what shouldnt u do when falling in?" then he said, "Permission to speak, SIR", when we asked for his name, he stood down there quietly and " Permission to answer?!SIR!" then i was like...dotz...if he's gonna do that, he's gonna be mad. ha...ytd was chinese new yr..chu 1..so went to uncle's house for gathering...sianz...nobody can entertain me yet i'm gonna entertain no one..so fine..nvm i sat down there like an idiot like that and smile, "HAPPY NEW YEAR!"...erm.dotz..like i'm that kind of automatic machine when u switch the button i will say "GONG XI FA CAI! HAPPY NEW YR!" that sort of thing....idiot...anyway..went out with the gang of six the other day! boy i miss them!!LOL hope to go out with them soon! BIG HUGS TO THEM!

Sch

2006-01-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

HIHI..lolx..i kinda thinks that someone's shuai and that sort of thing..lolx..he's kinda a good person..except for the look gives me a bit of creeps..cuz look a bit like seng loong..ok..i have lots of write abt this new sch..friends i have made! Quite a lot though...peeps here are not bad!Anyway, xinyi from my sch really made me think really hard abt jc life. Is this really the route?..Cuz that day she cried and erm...kind of upsetting to see someone cry because she cant adapt well...nvm..i'll end here abruptly then...cya

OG17

2006-01-10T23:48:00.000+08:00

Boo! Orientation is over liao...so sad..will miss everyone in my OG and everyone whom i've cracked lame jokes with. Ha!! I just love the orientation and of cuz! MY OGLs!!! They are just wonderful people who brighten my life up! Anywayz, peeps out there...Xinyi, Pristine and Ming Wei Rocks!!!!!Ok..quoted from ming wei, (My ogls are not rocks. they'll die someday.-_-") Ok..here's the comment on me from my ogls..i'm happy and bubbly! I'm very enthu too! Yea!!But actually hor, crazy i may seem but nvr look at me when i'm in NP..no one likes me when i'm scolding them during np..well i mean my juniors la..I'm very fierce and strict when i scold the juniors..so watch out..ahaha...I pump them for not taking initiative, reporting late for np for no reason, and so on..ahaha...fierce right?..Heh..i'm a person who can change face in a split second. Nvm abt that. Ok..yann ming makes me feel kind of Funny. He went ard telling peeps that i'm a SI and tell the peeps out there to call me m'am!!lolx..oh man...well...so much for that...nvm...i'll end here bah...

Op

2005-12-20T14:36:00.000+08:00

oh man....the op was terrible....just barely 5 minutes and i feel like screaming. The anesthetic was proven to be useless...kk...the operation goes like this:
Firstly, the doc place a knife/needle into my face and started to cut it....OUCH! MURDER!!!HELP!!!
Later, the nurse keep pressing very hard as there was a lot of blood oozing out...sigh...finally finished! and there goes 650 bucks!

Hi

2005-12-17T02:27:00.000+08:00

You Are 23 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

err!!YEA!!

2005-12-17T02:16:00.000+08:00

I think i have officially patched up with that friend of mine...but hey? who knows?!

You are Harry Potter...Stubborn (like a good thing though) .. Famous
(thoug you dont want to be).. Loving for yourf
friends and others.. heroic, always willing to
help people...Thoug everybody do not like you, you have some
enemies.. But you will defend your friends
against them,...

Wich Hogwarts student are you?
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Sigh

2005-12-16T13:46:00.000+08:00

Sigh...yesterday i went to see the doc again. This time is REALLY the final time already. Anyway, before i see the doc, i met miss lim and her mum at taka but she failed to see me. Ha..here goes the funny incident:
Firstly, i msg her and told her that i met her at taka.
Then, she replied a friendly msg and was quite disappointed that she didn't see me.
Later, she said: "Hanwei is trying to organise a gathering for all of us. Hope to see u there."
Initially, i was like "ER?!" who is hanwei? and i msg back to ask her.
In the end, it was all a misunderstanding. She thought that the person who msg her has all along been her friend who has the same name as me..LOL!!
Sigh. Anyway, tues i have an operation on the face at 11.20 am...*worries*...just wish me luck! Today nothing much, except that i've got posted to PJC my first choice. Must ask the gang of 6 where they got posted to. I only know suting's results.

Outing again!

2005-12-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

Yea! Went out with the so call "gang of 6" again...but only got the 5 of us though...choun eng is missing...wonder did she even received my msg?so sad...we agreed to meet at the 63 bus stop and poof! we thought choun eng will be there...but she's not. So we went ahead and go to the gym. lol. The gym session was fun initially cuz i did the machine for the arm and lost 100 cals...lol...easy and fast!..ahahaha...later, i did the treadmill...firstly, i thought the treadmill is so cool...cuz i on to a low speed...around 4.0 miles/hr...then stroll slowing...after that, i realised that the machine was too slow for me, and in the end i on until 6.2 miles/hr. Jane was beside me...still strolling happily and not long after, both of us started running on the treadmill...phew...i lot abt 123 cals from there. Finally, i did the pedaling machine...dunno wats that called. Its even more strenous than the treadmill! Just 15 cals and i'm starting to get tired. So in the end i did like 30 cals? mad machine. And one word of advice: Nvr do the bicycle pedaling one...although it is easy, u just have to pedal and pedal, the cals lost is NOT great at all. Pedal for 30 minutes and ur bum will start to ache and the most irritating thing is that u will only lose like 15 cals? So sad rite? anyway, met suyi after her work and we all went for dinner. And yes! I'm back home now!Yea!!!I've got eagles award!!!!!!!YEA!!!! Cya on the nxt blog!

Outings..and more.

2005-12-14T01:00:00.000+08:00

Heya!!!I've create a new blog already...took down the previous one due to too many nonsensical people writing on my tag. Lol...anyway...sat was the primary school class gathering. Haiz. Maybe it is because we haven seen each other for like 4 years...the scenario a bit awkward. Firstly, mark ong is still as hostile as ever. Nvr mind abt him...the whole was like practically lunch, taking photo at sentosa, dinner, then home. Oh man...they are still gonna hold another stayover + barbecue....sad...how am i gonna survive it? Sigh! Went out with jane today. She bought her long waited web cam finally! Yea Congrats! Lol...we went home at around 9? lol..time to sleep now...getting a little tired. Cya.